My first triathlon event of 2010 is in 4 weeks, ugh, that snuck up on me. Had a good workout at the gym tonight was very glad the anticipated thunderstorms held out for me to swim. I did about 600 yds, please note that is not all freestyle but I did 80% of it without stopping. That is close to 1/2 the distance of the tri swim. I think I did a good job of focusing on myself and not worrying about what others were thinking. I shared a lane with another swimmer, which is usually not my thing but I didn't let it get it get to me tonight. Besides with 4 weeks to go I don't have time for it to get to me.
Lets hope this long holiday weekend has some nice weather so I can get outside for a run and bike.
I decided today that I WILL make my goal weight by my 40th bday. It's definitely do-able as long as I stick to a sensible diet, continue to workout on a regular schedule and don't have to many "splurge" nights.
Why?
I’ve been struggling lately. Struggling with motivation, struggling with training, struggling with weight loss, struggling to stay on the right path, struggling with my confidence, struggling to be happy with my life, struggling to see the good, struggling to be proud of myself.
I recently read an article that asked “Why do you want to be a triathlete?”
Why do I want to be a triathlete?
Because I can, that’s right nobody has told me I can’t…except for myself.
I have read and been told and know in my heart that if I learn to swim, dedicate myself to training and have the desire to do it, I can do anything.
Didn’t everyone’s parents tell them growing up…“You can be or do anything you want to do, if you just put your mind to it.”
You see I’m a people pleaser, I try to make everyone else around me happy, I do the right things for others. Until recently I never really did anything for myself. I played basketball in high school, because my dad wanted me to; don’t get me wrong I LOVE the game but at that time the drive was not for me.
I graduated college for my parents, again I wanted to graduate but the drive was not for me.
The drive has always been about making others happy and I’ve done many things in my life to make others happy and it’s about darn time I do things for myself.
Most recently I’ve started losing weight, again, but this time for myself, not anyone else. I quit smoking (3/3/2007) because I wanted to, not for anyone else. I did the Iron Girl in Columbia, MD in Aug 2009 because I wanted to, not for anyone else.
I want to be a triathlete. I want to be an Ironman some day. I want to push myself beyond my “known limits.” I want to see what my mind can make my body do. I want this to be my way of telling myself “I’m proud of you.”
An Ironman is in my future, maybe not the near future but it is in my future. I turn 40 in 93 days and I’m sure several people are saying why are you deciding to do this now, why so late in life? I say “why not.” I say it’s time to do things for me! I grew up watching Kona Ironman and being inspired by their stories to prove to themselves they can do this. I want to be part of that inspiration.
I recently read an article that asked “Why do you want to be a triathlete?”
Why do I want to be a triathlete?
Because I can, that’s right nobody has told me I can’t…except for myself.
I have read and been told and know in my heart that if I learn to swim, dedicate myself to training and have the desire to do it, I can do anything.
Didn’t everyone’s parents tell them growing up…“You can be or do anything you want to do, if you just put your mind to it.”
You see I’m a people pleaser, I try to make everyone else around me happy, I do the right things for others. Until recently I never really did anything for myself. I played basketball in high school, because my dad wanted me to; don’t get me wrong I LOVE the game but at that time the drive was not for me.
I graduated college for my parents, again I wanted to graduate but the drive was not for me.
The drive has always been about making others happy and I’ve done many things in my life to make others happy and it’s about darn time I do things for myself.
Most recently I’ve started losing weight, again, but this time for myself, not anyone else. I quit smoking (3/3/2007) because I wanted to, not for anyone else. I did the Iron Girl in Columbia, MD in Aug 2009 because I wanted to, not for anyone else.
I want to be a triathlete. I want to be an Ironman some day. I want to push myself beyond my “known limits.” I want to see what my mind can make my body do. I want this to be my way of telling myself “I’m proud of you.”
An Ironman is in my future, maybe not the near future but it is in my future. I turn 40 in 93 days and I’m sure several people are saying why are you deciding to do this now, why so late in life? I say “why not.” I say it’s time to do things for me! I grew up watching Kona Ironman and being inspired by their stories to prove to themselves they can do this. I want to be part of that inspiration.
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